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17 March 2009 @ 08:52 pm
I deleted all my other entries on this journal. In a way, I want to start fresh, clear the negative so to speak. I spent the past four days in the hosptial in DKA (diabetic ketoacidosis), and it nearly killed me. The doctors werent even sure how I made it, as all my levels were completely out of control.  Long story short I'm still here, and i'm starting fresh. I plan on taking care of my diabetes and myself along with it.  Losing weight is a big part of that plan. I was 180 pounds this morning. I'm not proud of that fact, but everyone needs a starting point.

My stay in the hospital made me realize that vanity isnt everything. I have a little boy that i love dearly, 3 dogs that annoy the hell outta me. Friends whom I couldn't live without, family that couldn't live without me, and an almost boyfriend who i'm absolutely crazy about. ^_^ In that aspect life is good.

I went grocery shopping yesterday and realized just how hard it is for me to buy food. There's two things i'm majorly trying to stay away from. High fructose corn syrup and aspartame. Most of the regular foods i eat have the corn syrup and most of the diabetic foods i eat contain aspartame. that pretty much sucks ass. I got a few things, mostly fruits and veggies, and fish. love fish! and i'm almost weaned off the caffine again, which'll mean a huge decrease in my aspartame consumption. Water is looking better and better for me. and i need to look and see if i can use those single serve koolaid packets. hopefully they contain neither sugar nor aspartame, i'm just looking for some flavor.  I basically need to become a label whore. make sure i know exactly what and how much im putting into my body.

i'm trying to exercise more too. i'm still really weak from being in the hospital, so obviously starting slowly.  but some light strength training and walking on the treadmill to try and get my strength back.

So there's a big nutshell update.